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Saturday, June 30, 2007
11:17 AM

Omg its soo sad folks....One of my school teacher whom i respect the most had alr left the school yesterday and it was really a heartwrenching day for me as she was the one teacher that had made me woke up from my daydream and had always support me in everything i do and i really thank her soo much for teaching me some subjects these years and being with her and her lessons made me smiled and laughed alwayz abt her lame and funny jokes that she regalled us...omg why must she leave?? this sch will be so bored without her presence....the way she gave me the compliment in front of my folks really moved me and when everyone was abt to leave her lesson for assembly, she actually cried and i cant stand it too....till most of the student had left the room left only some of the girls including me.....they were hugging her really tightly but i was the one that had actually teared first and i really hugged her really tightly....she was crying too and for the first time, i was tearing...i couldnt believe my eyes...Gawd thx for fate that led me to meeting her presence and felt vivacious again with her lessons....I hope that she will alwayz do fine in her future endeavour and may god always side her and that success will alwayz be in her way....Once again thx for everything that u've done for me....I noe that ill miss you soo much...Thx again!!
I gotta let it go


Wednesday, June 13, 2007
6:57 AM

A lil' child that’s me

There I am sitting in a corner all alone
Feeling the emptiness engulfing me
Like a child on its own
Maybe im the child to be
Experiencing the griefness in my life
Where lives all the truth and lies
That were meant to be told

I wish I could say it loud
To tell everyone what I’d felt
I wish I could scream it out
Everything that’s been hidden
In this feeble heart that bleeds

And here I am, the lil’ child
Standing in the darkness all alone
Wishing that these sorrows will be mild
The myriad pain and tears Ive cried
Hoping that it’ll be my last goodbye
A goodbye that’ll go far away
And never will it come back to stay

I wish I could say it loud
To tell everyone what I felt
I wish I could scream it out
Everything that’s been hidden
In this feeble heart that bleeds

I thought I hear voices
Calling for me
But when I turn around,
There’s no one to be seen
These voices kept repeating
In my head,
Making me haunted by the
Absence of the dead
Fear of these voices,
I bewail
Peeved at my own silence,
I tear and fail

(Chorus)

There I am, crying all alone
Like a child on its own

Just Me


5:51 AM

Hey hey hey, omg guys its been so long since ive updated my profile, not even been touching it either...what can i say?? Am I too busy or am I too lazy?? haha well, just figured it out urself and my chatterbox has been said that im having a bad id...omg bad bad me....welll im soo darned up by all this shits surrounding my whole peaceful atmosphere haha....anywayz talking abt this yr hols for me, the first 2 weeks was Damn fun, depressiing and somehow at certain days im kinda being so introvert and seriously i dont even noe what the hell is going on arnd me....yeahh well u cud say that im being so obviously oblivious abt myself but well....why the heck shud i care if im ignoring it either....anywayz it felt like as though im running away from my reality to my childhood fantasies which had just realized that it sucks like hell; the further i am, the more i miss the person i love...well another thing u cud call me being a refugee of myself haha and i dont even bother and even if i did, i dont wanna waste my time sharing here cause its way too 'OMG' to tell u guys...anywayz back to what i was talking abt, oh yeah speaking abt fugitive abt myself, the hols for these weeks for me was bad and not bad either........the bad thing was that, im too stresed up with everythings thats surrounding me and it cant be more than demoralizing i can say but lets just not go on with that....the good part was that, i was able to have FUN with my pri sch bestie which i thought that it was one of my relaxing moment adding to some of the so called short-hours-of-my-runaways from home for like 4-5 hrs, had to deliberately think of a ruse so that i could get the hell out of my hse and wander alone in the streets or going to cafe, or even going to malls ALONE and letting out everything that had been dumped in my head making me having stupid migrains haaha.....but it was sooo fun to explore the lil' part of spore(as if but i get to explore it a lil') and get to breathe smoothly and heaved out a sigh of relief....and i guess im doing the right thing....i mean cmon shouldnt i be getting some of my own time, letting myself to be ME again rather than i being too worked up with the probs at home in which at times i felt like suffocating with all the miseries, aint i rite?? seriously....hah anywayz now im starting to miss all my bitches and bastards(haha cmon im saying it in a good way guys)....somehow theyre my good friends esp. My best friend, TAN SIEW YING...well what can i say she's my beyotch-in-crime and the one who'd been helping me kickin' some friggin' asses in school....yeahh....oh well my marks are gawddamn bad and i had to better buck up or else im gonna be doomed for the rest of my living life and i had to do this for myself cause i believe that now the future lies in me to decide it and if im reli wanna strive for the best this year i knew that hardwork would pay ooff wellll....and the mysteries happening between me and SIEW YING and someone else*confidential*(i had wanted this to happen so badly) will soon turn to reality cause i believe what my instinct tells me and what my heart had made me felt...........and this is a pledge im making to myself ....please guys if only u noe the real truth, ull noe what im feeling deep inside my lil' child's heart...and for what ever reasons, please help me stay by my side and plz support my decision cause i really do not want it to be crushed a million pieces and i guess thats all i can say abt it and guess what Im going off now...been writing too longg and im worried that it mite bore u guys to DEATH(hope it wont)haha...so ill just head off now gotta put in my new song in the blogg...ive composed it and if u guys can relate to it, it shows that u are very understanding and u'll understand what i feel and why this song is very meaningful to me...haha guess ill just end here now...aite...soo longg..
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